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2002-04-04 - 12:44 a.m. Hello! So I just had a very interesting conversation with my ex boyfriend. I guess we're good now. See, when Corey and I were dating, he mildly physically abused me and my dad found out and that was the end of that relationship. I thought we would still be 'secrect lovers' (if you will). But nothing doing b/c he found another girl about three weeks later. Understandably hostilities broke out on my part and I called him more names than I'm willing to admit. I was hurt. Quite honestly, I was dead for a little bit. Had to keep up an act for the girls... you know... be hapy and all that. But I realized that I was a beter person for it. I knew what I didn't want in a relationship and what I did. Whereas before hand I was kinda looking for someone with a pulse who was nice. Don't get me wrong, I loved Corey with everything. Somedays just to piss off my dad and somedays because he was a great guy. But anyways.. I digress. I still had many hostilities (toward myself mostly for letting myself be tricked so easily) and I sadly took them out on Corey. Being the needy person he is he insisted on still being friends. This didn't settle well most days b/c he would usually bring up 'the new girl' (I don't wanna give out too many names here). My feelings changed when I went to a overnighter at my church about sex and purity. I realized that here was a perfect guy out there who would forgive me for what ever physical actions I took with Corey (not sex, people... be nice to me.. I'm a church girl with an ex-marine dad). It felt good. For some reason I had thought the Corey was the end all be all. He's not. I've moved on. We're good friends now. I'm helping him with some things and he's helping me get ... Josh (isn't that what we called him?). I hope someone out there reads this and realizes that they shouldn't settle for less than what they deserve**. No one should ever feel that they have to. I'll put up another entry with some of the notes from the overnighter. Love y'all, Edith **I'm not saying Corey is "below me". I didn't know what I wanted then. I do now and I even have a list of qualities the guy must have to date me seriously (complete with stick figure diagram). There's a want ad up in the Bond Officer's Office. ;)
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