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2003-01-06 - 5:54 p.m. I hate being deserted, you know? I feel a lot like how I felt during the aftermath of Corey... alone. Uncared for. But at least then I had a best friend to love me. Now I don't have anything. I get nothing but excuses anymore.... and answering machines. This is probably being magnified by the fact that I havn't had two consecutive nights of good sleep in forever... but I know the feelings are still there. I hate being fucking left behind. I think that's why this bothers me so much... it's so reminicent of when Corey was being a bastard. I feel... dumped? Maybe I should just accept my role as second fiddle.... Everyone I ask says it's normal to be left behind to new, romantic additions.... Besides, it's not like my absence will be noticed for a while anyways...
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