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2003-04-05 - 8:54 p.m. Craziness. I'm not going out tonight.. Mom and I were fighting... I don't know what's happened, but something's snapped inside.. It's like, I've always had this desire to be better (i.e. More resposible, focused, house chores are fun. woo.) but this week I've acutally been able to buckle down and do things. Which reminds me, I still have laundry going... I dont know why, but I've been a friggin' Responsabeast lately. I think it's an internal desire to show my mom up.... She just doesn't trust me... We had a huge fight today... ended with me going downstairs and screaming "Fuck you!" everytime she spoke... I still haven't apologised and I don't think I should have to. It's only natural for me to want to get out of the house/PoHo and be independant for a while... well, psuedo-independant. I think after living for 18 years under someone elses rules, it should be only natural for me to want out. I had a dream with a bunch of people from my past in it this week.... people I haven't spoke to in a long time... I want my fucking license. Now. But nooo.. it had to snow so now Dad's afraid to let me drive... Dammit. This entry is wierd. I think I'll title it "Weird Entry #1".. somehow I dont' think this will be the last one...
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